my life is over now. seriously over. i am not gonna stay here anymore.

ughh. my brother din went work yesterday. so he actually checked my table and found two things. MY PROGRESS CARD. and the FORM. that rachel gave me. my aunt told me beforehand. so i thought of a reason for the form. i said is my friend wnated it from me. so i gave her mine. and corection tape everything.

he told me to gave him the form and questioned me blahblahblah. and in the end. i was cauight redhanded. AGAIN. uhhh. so thats the end of me. they are not gonna forgive me ever again. so yeah. i think noone can help me now. i cant even help myself lah. no one will ever believe me. thats so saddening. so consequences is i am going back to where am i at the end of this year.

OMG. i am dead. i dont know what my life would be after that. i dont know how am i gonna survive. i dont know how am i gonna fulfil my wish to become gynae. i dont know how am i gonna get my studies. she told me that she gave me chances but i disappoint her again and again. YOU THINK I WANT ?

please. if you act like other parents who give ALITTLE BIT of freedom. would i end up like that ? i dont know. but from the way i know my life is. i try not to lie to you about where i am going. and the answer you always gave me is NO. so what you want me to do ? i am a TEENAGER. i need to go out with my friends. i need to have happiness. blahh.

i dont wanna say anymore. i had already forgotten how to smile from my heart.