11th day `

hmmms. woke up early today. damn. everyday i am forced to wake up early. i dont want. yahh. i just dont want. i feel irritating when every morning people go. STELLA WAKE UP. ITS NINE ALREADY. arghhhh. i feel like killing that guy. urghhh. forget it. yeahh. so today went to my cousins new house. OMG. its darn big. its like not call a HOUSE its a MANSION. urghhhh. it has lift. i feel like staying there can. stop about it lahh. the thought of staying there make me feeeel so NEVERMIND. hahas

yeahh. was having this darn menstrual cramp during the cleaning up of the big mansion. my aunt asked whether i need to go see the doctor. i said no. it was so kind of her to ask me. smiles.she even offered to pay the money for dying my hair black. i told her my mom sure wont allow. she said she will speak to her. LOL` i am happy. but i still want rebonding more. sob sob. hahas. yeahhh. she was very nice.

went back home. arghhh. my cramp is killing me. stupid. i just hate being girls. you know ?? you will have this stupid cramp which will kill you and those blood oozing out of your V and the feeling is like OOOOHH. fuckkkk. ahh forget it. so stomach cramp is NOOOT NICE. yeahh. so i cried myself to sleep. i mean. an afternoon nap. just because of it. urghhhh. i cant go to work. i cant go anywhere. so people CRY FOR ME.

have been sleeping lately. urghh. i cant keep on sleeping like this. i have to do something. like READING BOOKS. CARRY ON WITH MY GUZHENG PRACTICE. in case anyone dont know. my grade four exams is round the corner and i still have not been praticing well. urghh. i am gonna fail. and reading books. speaking of books. i ran out of books. just this little book xinyu lent me long ago. which i only started on chapter one. people. persuade me to read will you ? haiiiis. forget it.

GUESSED what ?? my little brother told me this. we were talking about early marriage. i dont know why we will talk about this. but it just happen its on our topic. lols.so i told him that most of our cousins get married when they are 25. yeahh. then he asked me. YOU WANT TO FOLLOW THEM. i said YEAHH. lols. he told me this which make me feel REALLY REALLY CONFIDENT. hahas. mrs cheng my primary four teacher. met MR CHENG in secondary school. and they just go on with their relationship until they get married. i was like WOW ! their relationship very strong. hahas. SO i have confident NOW. muahahahaas. people. THREE CHEERS FOR ME. heeheee.

yeahhh. long post today. i am moody yet happy. people. i suddenly dont know who am i. urghhh. you tell me to take care. hmmms. i seriously cant take care of myself. i keep having sickness when you are away. i want you to take care of me. really. come back and take care of me. smiles.