The only time I enjoy now.

Guess what. I just got to know about my mid-term dates today. And it make me wonder, why does everyone knows about it but not me. Oh, and it occurred to me, I haven't been going lectures here and there. And I have no idea why I didn't catch all those during the lecture recordings. But, I've been pushing myself hard. Since last week. Forcing myself to really understand the concept, especially maths. That's one thing I'm proud about. Doing math regularly. But is there really of any use? I just couldn't find a time to consult anybody about the questions I don't know. I find myself very useless because of that. There's hardly anyone who really sincerely wants to help here. 

That's how Uni is I guess. Everyone here are just too independent and all they care about is unfortunately, themselves. When they are done, then they are done for it. They are not gna stop, look back and said 'Oh, you're still there, let me help you' No. I guess they won't. And yesssssssssssss. That is so annoying. 

But, I really want to continue to be positive. I'm trying to. Really. Midterms are coming next week. And finals in a month time. I will be positive. I will look forward to studying everyday. Telling myself each time I study, I learn a few new things. 

But ofcus, that will be even better if I have you around working hard with me. Really.