Never felt so lonely in my life..

Ugh, pecs went for OBS today. Wtfxfxfxfx! Im in my depression mood tday. Seriously, my worst day ever, Rax & Karen went for their camps too. So im like so left alone in class apart from Pling. Imagine I donthave her! Omg, I'd rather skip school for the whole week. Lit class, no Liying, no Junie, no Huiqing. My life is so so fun indeed. Omg, really feel like crying now. Depression~

Anw, went for ndp celebration on 9thAugust. Funny, Im not even a Singaporean & I went. Conclusion is, only the water fountain display & the fireworks are nice. The dances are cool though I cant see them quite properly. Ohyesss, another thing, the plane display is nice too, especially the designs they made out of the steam in the air. It was really crowded after ndp, people were towering cityhall mrt, bt fortunately, Im gng home by car. Stiu, traffic jams are devils.

PS. Ive never ever felt so lonely before. Athome, you kno nobody will talk to me other than you & crystal. Crystal has her own life, her boyf to accompany. How abt you? Youre always w yur friends, out w them, enjoying yur life w them. Do you ever care whats happening to me at home? I kno you stiu care by smsing & all. Bt, what I really wn, do you kno? I feel so lonely at home, only Harry Potter to accompany me w. Hes not my boyf mind you, I need you alright. I need you to accompany me alright. You told me to change my attitude, I tried. Perhaps, these few days, I din actually attitude you or anything. & if I dont, you just dont bother to call. You said you'd try, bt Ive never seen it. You said we'll change together. Bt, I just got the feeling that Im the only one changing. You just take it that when Im changing, I'll tolerate everything. I tell you I cant. What I need & what I want, you just dont seem to understand at all...