nothing unusual happened today, had geog and mrslau was having pms, stupid. next was this teacher who reliefed us for mdm shirin period, again, i was damn fucked up by her, though i din offend her. she wanted to send gabrielle and camillia to detention for talking back at her. booos.

out with my darlings today, had a great time but was damn dulan with some people. disiao can luh, but dont too guofen luh, nb.

fuck, firstly, i feel like i am some kind of slut, who goes round dating guys so quickly than you all can ever imagine. i feel bad can, i was afraid that i would regret my choice cause i din think too much when i decide on it. its like i havent totally get everything over yet. not totally. secondly, we cant get back like we used to be anymore, i got a feeling that he doesnt even treat me as friend anymore, i feel damn emo can. i know i shouldnt be thinking of these, but everytime in school, i would accidentally bumped into him during recess or other times, and when everytime i am at home, and noone to talk to, he will came online. whats more, i dont know how to start a conver with him. as a friend, i dont know what to say to him. i HAVE TO forget him, but i want him to be my friend, like during the january and february times. i really want, seriously, just to be friends, not acquitance. thirdly, tomorrow will be the collecting of result slips. i am really afraid what will happen if my elder brother know that i failed two subjects. its like i did my best in other subjects already, i cant score well in history and science, thats my weakness, he cant just force me to pass it well, or even with flying colour, i am afraid he will ground me again. fourthly, i feel bad to him can, he treated me so well, so nicely. but i am still thinking of the past, i shouldnt did this to him, i will try. what if ..