i din really realised in your eyes i am still a small kid. whats wrong with girls going out ? whats wrong with going out with friends though exams are over. you told there is lots to do at home. but i just feel that i am so bored at home. you told me to stay at home and help out. yet nothing is there for me to do. BLAHHS. its that all you want ?

GET THIS CLEAR ! i am like SECONDARY ONE already. or rather FOURTEEN YEARS OLD. i am not like primary ones or twos. or however old you think i am. i wanted freedom. you said if i never lie to you or what, you will give me freedom. I TRIED. i really TRIED very hard. i told you the first time i wanted to go out with my friends. i said everything. i said who am i going with. where am i going. what i do there. what time i will be back. and whats your answer. STRAIGHT NO !

even now. i wanted to ask you whethger my friends could come my house. you even said no. what is the effing wrong with you. other parents can let their children go out. and other parents trust their children. why cant you just forget the past. and just trust me. or whatever. i said the truth anfd you still dont let. in fact YOU NEVER LET. so what can i do ? i have to lie. you know ? I HATE TO LIE. serious. i wanted to say the truth. but if i do. i will just get some stupid naggings and yelling. in the end. everyone is pissed off. if i tell lie. i will get what i want with a VERY guilty heart. you want that yeahh ?

you dont seriously think that i am different from other people do you ? i am like perfectly alright ? ALRIGHT ! normal ! just like everyone. what you think is that i am a foreigner. just the word FOREIGNER makes you think i am SO different from p0eople in singapore. PLEASE ! what you think is that foreigner should do better than singaporeans so that they will pleased the government and the government will let the foreigners became PR. oh please. stop that thinking can you ?

tell you ONCE AND FOREVER. i am not different from any of my friends. we are students. we are grown-ups students. we experience puberty. we get scoldings from teachers. we are happy together. WE ARE NOT DIFFERENT !